#jade #jen
#ray #RAY

i’m in love with a monster
and i’ve never felt safer


This has been eating at me all day. I have no idea if anyone else has said it, so I’m going to.

What’s being done to Grant Ward is beyond cruel and unusual.

In fact, it’s generally classified as torture.


This is not a healthy man.

Let’s talk about solitary confinement.

Per the Center for Constitutional Rights:

The devastating psychological and physical effects of prolonged solitary confinement are well documented by social scientists: prolonged solitary confinement causes prisoners significant mental harm and places them at grave risk of even more devastating future psychological harm.

Researchers have demonstrated that prolonged solitary confinement causes a persistent and heightened state of anxiety and nervousness, headaches, insomnia, lethargy or chronic tiredness, nightmares, heart palpitations, and fear of impending nervous breakdowns. Other documented effects include obsessive ruminations, confused thought processes, an oversensitivity to stimuli, irrational anger, social withdrawal, hallucinations, violent fantasies, emotional flatness, mood swings, chronic depression, feelings of overall deterioration, as well as suicidal ideation.

Exposure to such life-shattering conditions clearly constitutes cruel and unusual punishment – in violation of the Eighth Amendment to the U.S. Constitution. Further, the brutal use of solitary has been condemned as torture by the international community.

Per Amnesty International:

“You cannot overestimate the devastating impact long periods of solitary confinement can have on the mental and physical well-being of a prisoner. Such harsh treatment is happening as a daily practice in the US, and it is in breach of international law,” said Erika Guevara-Rosas, Amnesty International’s Americas Director.

The report explores the physical and psychological impact of confining inmates to solitary cells for 22-24 hours a day. The severe conditions in ADX have led to some prisoners practicing extreme self-harm or committing suicide.

Symptoms resulting from being held in isolation for extended periods include anxiety, depression, insomnia, hypertension, extreme paranoia, perceptual distortions and psychosis.

The UN has wanted it banned since 2011:

“Segregation, isolation, separation, cellular, lockdown, Supermax, the hole, Secure Housing Unit… whatever the name, solitary confinement should be banned by States as a punishment or extortion technique,” UN Special Rapporteur on torture Juan E. Méndez told the General Assembly’s third committee, which deals with social, humanitarian and cultural affairs, saying the practice could amount to torture.

“Solitary confinement is a harsh measure which is contrary to rehabilitation, the aim of the penitentiary system,” he stressed in presenting his first interim report on the practice, calling it global in nature and subject to widespread abuse.

Grant Ward was trying to cut his wrists open. When they finally got all the sharp objects away from him, he rubbed his face into the wall instead.

This is not how you rehabilitate someone. This is not how you make someone a good guy. This is how you permanently, irreparably, break them. This will end in a basket case or a supervillain.

I’m not going to claim Grant Ward’s an angel, far from it. He knows what he did. He also tried to save lives. His motivation came from a bad choice in father figures, and Coulson had a chance to fix that goddammit. He had a chance to show Grant a lighter road. Coulson had a chance to set up Grant for redemption.

Instead, Coulson chose to lock him up and let him rot, on the off chance of intel. It’s sad, and it’s sickening. I get that Coulson didn’t have a lot of options, as turning him in to custody would get Ward sent to GitMo (if you believe a certain brigadier general) and that’s arguably worse. But, I’m not here to play devil’s advocate.

This is wrong. Nothing else that can be said.


Supernatural | Extended Trailer (2014)

I finished my video for Chicon 2014! It’s sadly only really seasons 1-5, fitting all the seasons in a video is too much. Regardless, happy 10th anniversary SPN!

Book 4 premieres in 7 days on Nick.com!


Start with a prayer,
scrape the soft skin
of your knees on glass
and pretend this will work,
pretend there is hope striking
at the walls of your chest.

'Dear God,
Why is he ripping
out my spine?’

'Dear God,
I just wanted to be loved.’

'Dear God,
Don’t let me bleed out
on the bathroom floor.’

Start with an absolution,
pick yourself up
and rearrange your bones
the right way,
into something whole,
into something hungry.

Emily Palermo, Church (via miaiphonos)